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Wednesday, May 31, 2006

I finished my animal..... my killer whale... so cute so cool but in the end the result was onl a C+.... that's really bad.... I am tired of drawing.. I wanna touch that computer!!!!!! I wanna end this course fast... I am sick of it........ too sick of it... my shading is messy... my paper is untidy... haiz......... hopefully the rest of my following assignments regarding my character design and everything after that will be up to my teacher's... oh so high expectations and somehow or rather I can get that A or B... which ever grade is ok for me...

So anyway... yesterday I went to have dinner with Ci nelly and rennita... it was a meaningful dinner... I kinda learnt quite a lot... there was some sharing here and there... so yeah.... nice nice and oh ya I bought the "American Idol Season 5 Encores Album" and it is really very addictive... like for example the whole entire day I listened to this album more than 5 times..... Goodness I am that crazy over american idol!!! I like all the tracks but I liked the song Elliott Yamin sang... it is very good... Anyway... let me posts some pictures of my good american idol stars...
First off.. CLAY AIKEN

My favourite..... hahahahah... his voice is still unique... High and good......

Elliott my man!!! hahahah!!! U know it's amazing how awesome his voice is... I mean his like 90% deaf and God gave him this amazing voice..... He rawks..............

Chris.... the rocker........ cooooooool!!! Funky!!! get that funky music!!!!!!!

Taylor!!!!!! SOUL PATROL!!!! MULTI-TALENTED!!!!! UNIQUE VOICE!!!!!

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Saturday, May 27, 2006

a crazy week... a weird week.... so surprising.... weird fights... stupid fights... but it is still silly and I still think ur super childish... grow up dude!!

Yesterday's prayer concert was really amazing... like normally when we have this kinda thing... I would always look at my watch... for the time.... but amazingly... yesterday... I was praying so hard... and I wanted to continue praying but I just realised that it was already 10.30... I was like "HUH??? It's already 10.30.. I didn't realised that" hahahah!!! yeah it was a really powerful moment.. I almost thought my hand was burning... like the hotness of my palm was burning on fire...

Today...
I had discipleship.. I went there 11 mins late but they considered that early... hahahah!!! I wasn't the latest ok???we had such an interesting discussion... we shld do more of this cos this isn't an ending!!! It's just sooooooo interesting... so anyway... after that I went to church with ivan and robert.... I had a discussion for pukat with Ko budi and Ko Vincent... yeah then after that had POP... and then I went to watch X-Men 3.. it's kinda cool... but kinda lame at some points... but overall it was nice.. hahahah!!!

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Monday, May 22, 2006

HEy guys!!! U know wat yesterday was a really good day... hahahaha!!! I saw this really hot moodel!!! and his like really good looking... so nessa and I took a picture with him... I was like really nervous cos I was the one who asked him... I was shivering... when he touched my shoulder... the touch felt real warm!! hahahah!!!!! man..... hahahahah!! So hot!!!

I watched Over the hedge on saturday and yesterday... I know I saw it twice... but the graphics was really cool... and ok on saturday I saw it with Ci Nelly, Ko Budi, Ko davin, Ivan, Johan, Eugene... I think... I can't remember... my memory is kinda bad.. I only remembered watching and siting in the cinema.. But it was funny!! I think it is like better than Madagascar, The Wild.. this is like really jayuz... hahahah!!!

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Friday, May 19, 2006

So yeah... school has been really not so good... too busy... plus kinda dun really like all my teachers now... especially my drawing teacher.. it's like he likes different pple.. and he doesn't share his equal likeness to everyone.. and I soooo totally hate that... Plus yesterday when I was drawing the eye of my king cobra... and he kept walking by to the opposite table cos he likes them better.. and when I was done with my king cobra's eye.. I walked up to him and I asked him "is my cobra's eye ok??" and he said "I saw it when I was walking by... and it's too dark.. it's better that u draw the whole face.." and in my heart I was like "Couldn't u tell me earlier?!?" I spent most of my time on the eye.. and U kept walking to the other table... and u could have told me to just drew the face before I was done!?!!"

Ok so this drawing teacher of mine likes different pple... plus his starting to really annoy me... it has been the 2nd time where he says that 1P is better than u guys in design and drawing.. so do more drawing than talking... and it has been 2 times already... if he says it the 3rd time I am so gonna close my ears... Cos to me that's not encouraging... that's like bringing u down... making u small... thinking u can't do it... well I will not take it in!! I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me!! I dun care wat he says!!! There's another teacher.. this teacher keeps lecturing us... I mean seriously he doesn't teach us a single thing.. Like he doesn't teach us drawing or design.. and his lecturing us!?!?! Ok that's like weird... everytime he lectures us, it's like there's no link... if he taught us drawing or design I would listen to him... but he doesn't do anything man!!!

So anyway, yesterday Kang Ling, Tingyin, Sharmi and I went to see the 1P class present their design work... it was pretty good.. their design is really good!! But the thing is... why r the teachers treating them so nicely?!? Like they have fun but they dun scold them... but when my class have fun... all they do is nag nag nag... and when they presented it's like the teachers dun shoot them any questions... and when my class presented they shoot questions that really hurt my classmates... that's like very biased.... haiz..... I prefer my secondary school... it's so weird not going there anymore... my 4 years there was really meaningful... and all the teachers were really very nice and helpful... i missed them all!!!!!!!!!

Elliot Yamin was booted off in American Idol!! When I opened the internet browser to www.americanidol.com, (I always do that to see the latest results before the showed was shown at 6pm in Star World or at 8pm in Channel 5... heheheh!!) I was like" Oh man..... why didn't the girl go home????" Ok I am mean... Kat is not bad too!!! But I actually wanted Chris or elliot to win but now there is Taylor and Kat!!! I think Taylor will win!!! His my dad's favourite

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Saturday, May 06, 2006

well...I thought May would be this relaxing month... Plus me still having the holiday mood... but I was wrong... Majorly busy... Like I have this presentation on Thursday... It has to be perfect.. I mean the design and the presenting... apparently if I dun do it well... then I am gonna be like in big big trouble... if for example... I dun get to my teacher's expectations in my design work, that's it man... he is so gonna tear it in my face... Not that I will feel sad or anything but apparently just getting ready for that presentation costs a lot of money!!! I mean it's so silly.. like why in the world do we have this presentation?? probably to make us feel confident or completely humiliated in front of all the teachers', HOD, department head and the next class.. I mean the whole thing is just like major humiliation class.. Unless that person cries and runs out.. now that is seriously very mean...

But in the end all of us have to face the facts... mebbe presenting will just build me up.. or encourage me to do better but u know I have to think creative.. I dun wanna make a complete fool out of myself... I will handle the critics well.. and I will try hard to hold back that tears of mine... Hopefully they dun roll down my cheeks halfway his talking.. yeah have to really have confidence and brave!!! So if he actually tears it in my face, I will just stare at him... and just walk out... Let's hope it stays that way!!!

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